Love Scenes

I try not to watch too much TV. But when your alone a lot, having sound radiating through the house is sometimes needed. Sometimes you just need to hear another voice to give you an illusion that your live in a normal place.

but you don't.

Being separated is hard. But lately it just seems that I cheer for the anti-climax. What I mean is this. Most movies are broken up into three acts. Status Quo is established, then broken, Act 2 is the search for loss Status Quo and then Act 3 is New Status Quo is formed.

This is no where more evident than in Movies and TV Shows where people fall in love, break up and then get back together. What is especially painful is when I see the love in their eyes. I know their acting, but it happens in real life too. You see a couple holding hands or kissing. It hurts to watch, but as a moth to a flame, I keep doing it.

I not sure if the hard part is that I lost someone who wanted to give that to me and I discard it for my "controlled fantasy" or knowing that I probably will never see that look again. Perhaps its both.